Not long ago I wrote about my new organization, called Kirovograd Press Club of Reforms. I started working there around the beginning of October, and things were going pretty well. In fact, things were going so well for my counterpart that after the elections, the new oblast governor offered her a new position. Well, of course she took this new position – who can blame her? It is a great opportunity and her talent is being recognized.
This new opportunity for my counterpart, however, causes a problem for me, insofar as she was working with me on projects at the organization, and with her gone, there won’t be projects at the organization – in other words, the nature of the organization is changing, and there is no longer anything for me to do with it.
Well, I guess that is not entirely true. I asked her about the fact that I had been appearing in the magazine that supports the NGO (in two issues now), and she said there is no reason I cannot continue to be in the magazine – I guess more as a guest writer now than as part of the organization. And she may still post some of my blogs on www.kirovograd.net. Maybe I will still be invited to things to photograph or write about them…I don’t quite know.
In any case, Monday was my last official day at the organization. I have to return to pick up some things I left there, but overall, I will no longer be spending my days there. So where will I go now? Well, I am not entirely sure of that yet. I am still living at the Technical University, and therefore still spending one day a week there (well, two again this week) and a day at the Technical College. But for a primary assignment, we are still working on that. Yesterday I met with an organization who said they would be willing to work with me starting the first of January. So that is a maybe/probably, but they have not signed the paperwork with Peace Corps yet so it is not a definitely until that is done.
I must admit, this has been hard. I feel like I am six months behind, as I am now moving to yet another new organization (I also may be setting some kind of record here).
I have been told I sound like I have been complaining in my posts lately. I have been told that I am maybe too honest with telling people what I am going through. But I don’t believe in not being honest (to the extent possible on a blog. I mean, I don’t say EVERYTHING) about my experiences and emotions. I mean, this is not an easy thing to do, and we all have frustrations, and bad days (or bad weeks). Maybe by telling people what I am experiencing I seem like I am complaining, or cannot handle it. But I am still here, and still getting up every morning, and moving along – trying to move forward. I think that is better than pretending, at least for me.
So…more changes ahead for me…it seems that change is what my life is about. But with change comes progress, so I have always believed. And deep down, I know that ultimately it will be positive – for me and for the community in which I live. Stay tuned for more updates!